im telng u: thi trnsnd thng is stickng in my throat. im tryng to spit it
out int world and it jst rfse to pas intrfce from my mnd to my metafrcal
mth. what hll is?
  what hll doe it mean? why hll s/d anyne be intrsted? i wont settl 4 atng
-/ than cmplte indetermnncy how _n i ilumin thi strang plac wher wrd hv no
mnng
 and tonal color shift al over spectrum? no narrtve _n cptre thi flng i
_nt shak-thi naive blef in pow of snd to transcend al lgcal strctre whilst
findng direct lin
                                                       on central nrvu stm

 i thk_ transcndntal nbr may hv cl hidden away 4m somwhre. t/ neg al rtnal
exprson by blockng integrton music, bng nn-verbal, nn-rtnal, _nt arg i_s
way int
               exstnce. it has frm (if even of (x)), but thi frm cannot be
translat int lngstic exprson. i _nt even prsme to untnd its prpse